jennyguaranteed

done

2007-01-07T19:12:56Z

Instructions:

1. List 1-8 things that you want to say to people, but never will.

2. Don't say who they are.

3. Never discuss it again.

1.I love you, but you dont realise what an aqward situation you're putting me in.You tell me so much that relates to one of my closest friends,but want it to be kept a secret
but it's killing me,that this isnt all out in the open.

2.i'm so glad you proved me wrong and showed me you haven't lost your backbone

3.you drive me insane.you need to think before you speak,and be careful of what you say infront of people. or it will be a very messy end, very messy

4.i can be truly and utterly myself with you which is quite fantastic :)

5.i dont know if i can trust you.my heart wants to trust you because i want someone to tell things to,someone to listen but my heads saying i shouldnt because you tell me your best friends secrets, so why would u keep mine?

6.it upsets me, i feel like there's two different parts of you
the one part which i can be myself with,who cares about my opinions, listens to what i say and generally makes me feel valued. then there's the other part which dismisses me,makes me feel small and like i am an immature gnat who's buzzing about.
i wish you'd stay like the first part, but i guess people change and i cant stop you
its just quite sad

7.i think you're excellent,and it annoys me sometimes how people treat you

8.i dont know why i try so hard really.i think you're great,and we do get along well but sometimes you make me feel so stupid and insignificant to everything

saddening

2006-12-19T22:57:10Z

its kinda saddening when you realise that y'know that person that you thought was strong
had their own opinions
was honest
was by your side

well turns out
they dont have their own opinions
they buckle to end up sucking up
they change
even though they always seemed like they wouldnt
and used to slag off people that did
but now they're doing exactly what they used to say they hated
and turned into a person who they used to say they hated

its saddening really when you realise that
xx

jennyguaranteed @ 2006-09-24T18:58:00

2006-09-24T18:07:00Z

good weekend
learned a lot and now im at peace :)
during the week i got upset about something that i shouldnt have been affected by in the first place
i came to realise that i was trying to fill a gap in my life, giving into fantasy when really thats not whats meant to fill the gap
and dont start telling me to fill the gap with religion or ill hit you
im going to find out myself in time whats missing
but for now im completely and utterly blissful
the way i intend to stay for a while
x

jennyguaranteed @ 2006-09-21T22:38:00

2006-09-21T21:39:02Z

the fake world is sickening
the real world is something people need to wake up to

jennyguaranteed @ 2006-07-10T22:52:00

2006-07-10T21:52:54Z

im starting to worry that im turning into one of those people that doesnt show their feelings

ive been keeping everything so bottled up for so long i burst into tears in tesco's tonight of all bloody places.

ive turned into a person who pretends everythings ok when it really isnt,when before i would tell my friends when something was wrong,or upsetting me

now i feel like on the verge of a fucking mental breakdown and dont know what to do.

i feel like a grumpy old un-fun sod and i dont know why anyone would want to be around me atm cos i'd just tell them to fuck off. dont know how jen put up with me 24/7 for the last week.

things i used to find fun,i cant be bothered with.
im getting sick of it.

jennyguaranteed @ 2006-05-23T15:58:00

2006-05-23T15:07:35Z

jens a silly billy
who bullies me into updating

*sob*

today was bio
was okkkk
didnt want to go home so i went for lunch with robert and jade and we laughed at the little ones a lot
i walked home in the raaain :(:(

yeh jen i know u said i was to write something good but this as good as your getting for leaving me this weekend,even if u areee getting me a see you jimmy hat....
xxxxxxx

newnan

2006-05-12T19:00:59Z

i realised ive never felt as cool as i did cruising round newnan with jen chrissy and cami last summer, listening to lil john and mike jones up loud...man we were cool
its been a day of memories as i was cleaning out my room
found all my wee momentos of tour like my cinema ticket for the longest yard and my busch gardens pass and stuff,what an amazing time we had
and i found a stack of pokemon cards :)

i also found the bag jen julz and amber filled with stuff for my bday last year lol. i'd forgotten about it! looked inside to see the HUUUGE pants,the fluffy thong,the condoms,the facemasks,the shower stuff and the chocolate mouses which i dont know are still edible!

i like memories
on weeks like this where i havent seen anyone since like monday its good to have memories to think on if your not making them

so all in all memories = good
:)
xxxxxx

again

2006-05-09T15:36:07Z

yeh im pretending its summer again and walking about in my shorts lol

after french we had the chat about summer rain and stuff and it just got me in the mood

jens bullying me into updating this, dont worry il get better at it
im just crap at writing about myself :)

french was good today :) we(jen,the dirty minded one) made up naughty things in french cos we're THAT cool like stuff about giant rhinos and stuf...........

vicky gave me a headrub today :)

that is all
xxxxxxxx

greetings

2006-05-08T14:39:26Z

Hello. I'm Jenny.

when it comes to Livejournal, i'm a lazy fuck.

:)

Jen loves me despite this though.

Anyway today:

I pottered about the house in shortshorts (who likes shortshorts?! I LIKE SHORTSHORTS!) and a vest top, pretending it was summmer.

To be fair, on me, it does feel like summer though. With that sun-thing and the cloudless sky and the blueness and how everything is all NICE. even though its bloody windy.

After deluding myself into July, i attempted some french revision, which consisted of me reading over vocabularly sheets while watching tv / eating / thinking of something else, and not really paying any attention.

:)

xx